Confession from Conviction

I am convicted on how much I have been motivated heavily in life by pride and idolatry, and this summer during my internship, God really called me out on both. My idols are found in sports (Lebron James and the Cavs), friendships, romantic relationships, and a fixation that God has called me to be a senior pastor one day (which at this point, I am not entirely certain about). I wonder if studying here at Moody is actually of the Lord, and if not, then I labor in vain (PSA 122:1). At times, I am more of a Pharisee, giving God external praise, but deep down is a heart that is still yet fully surrendered to God. As far as sensing God’s commands as burdensome, I think about how I have little desire to evangelize or to truly love others selflessly; I should be doing both out of a sheer love of God. Lastly, I am guilty of elevating the opinions of others to be God’s voice when I cannot clear discern what He is saying.